Tuesday, May 13, 2014

The Sacrifices We Make

When I first started this blog almost 6 years ago, I didn't let a day go by without a fun little update about our family. Hence the name A Daily Dose of Davis. I was busy navigating my way through the first year of motherhood and I loved being able to hop on this blog at night and talk about the day we had. It was a way for me to journal those long, sleep-deprived days that went by far to quickly. I cherish each and every one of those posts and look back on them all the time. I am so happy I have those memories…my words from a time in my life when I thought things couldn't get crazier or more wonderful.

These last 6 years have gone by so fast and I have not only watched my children grow on this blog…but also myself. When I quit my job to stay home with my babies in 2008, I didn't exactly know what I was getting myself into. But what I did know is that I would never regret one moment home with them. These last 6 years I have been present for every milestone, for every cold or sniffle, for every boo boo, for every field trip, for every Mother's Day tea, for every dance practice or library story time. I got to spend my days at the park, playing in the backyard, taking trips to the zoo, going on playdates, napping on the couch, having picnics, playing baby dolls or Ninja Turtles. The three of us got to spend our days together…and that is something I did not take for granted.

Obviously, some days at home were hard. Like…bang your head against the wall repeatedly, hard. Some days just the melody of the "Hot Dog" song from Mickey Mouse clubhouse would set me over the edge. I remember calling Eric's phone, even though I knew I would get his voicemail, just so I could leave a fake message and he could hear the kids screaming and crying in the background. I wanted him to feel my misery those days. 

But every time I had a bad day and complained about it to someone with order children, they would beg me to slow down and enjoy it. They would tell me to take the hard days with the good and remember that they are only little for a short time. Before I know it, they will be in school and activities and have friends that are way more important that their silly old mom. And I will be wishing I could have these days back.

And I feel like I am already there. 

Our lives and our schedules have changed so much this year and I feel like I've watched the kids grow before my very eyes. A few weeks ago, we had a garage sale and sold the last of our baby items. As I watched a mom push away my last stroller I got big tears in my eyes. It happened again at Target a week later when I realized that Blake is on the last size in the Toddler section. Soon both my babies will be in the big kid section and I am just not ready to accept that! It's all happening so fast and I can't make it slow down.

But at the same time, I don't want to go back to diapers and 3am feedings. I LOVE the ages my kids are right now. I think 4 and 6 are magic numbers.


Right now, I am Addie's best friend and Blake's favorite girl. The two of them want to be with me all the time, but still like to have their independence to play with friends and enjoy school and activities. They still want to cuddle and kiss me goodnight and best of all…they never so much as leave the room without telling me they love me.


Eric and I have this very small window of time where these two want to be everywhere we are and I am trying so hard to take advantage of that. It's why we have a camper. It's why we've booked our next trip to Disney. It's why I save all of my shop and school work for after bedtime. It's why I've never put them in daycare. It's why I never turn down a volunteer opportunity at their schools. It's even why I have sacrificed this blog over the last year, and especially over the last two months. There simply aren't enough hours in a day to do and be everything I want. At this stage in life, where my kids need me, I can't give 100% to anything other then them. I can't give 100% to my career. I can't give 100% to my friends. I can't give 100% to Eric. And I especially can't give 100% to myself. Sacrifices have to be made sometimes and I have to choose where and how I spend my time. 

Some day it won't be like that. My kids won't need 100% of me and I'll be able to do all the things I simply can't find time for right now. And I will probably be sad about it. 

At first. Ha! 

So please forgive me friends…for being so absent around here lately. This blog was not an easy thing to sacrifice. I missed writing so very much and even though I won't be able to post as frequently as I used to, I feel I need to make this space a bigger priority again. Sharing pics on Facebook and Instagram is great and all…but I want stories to look back on. I want my words and my thoughts at this stage in life too. The kids make me laugh on a daily basis with their funny little attitudes and personalities and I want to remember them this way.

So after final exams are over this evening and I get all of my gardening done this week, I am going to attempt a little March-May in a Nutshell post to get things back up to speed. Stay tuned, my friends :-)

P.S. Nicole…thank you for encouraging me to post today. It's because of you that I finally sat down to write…and I am so happy I did :-)

3 comments:

  1. I had to chuckle at the paragraph about banging your head against the wall & the phone call to your husband's voice mail so he could hear the kids in the background. As a brand-spanking-new SAHM, I've TOTALLY done that. And I will admit that I am THRILLED when he calls & we're in the middle of my 2 1/2 year old's temper tantrum and the baby is screaming during a diaper change. I think it's good for him to have a glimpse into those special moments. lol.
    Loved this post. Very honest and how I feel too - even though mine are still so little. Glad to hear that you are doing well!! I started to get a little worried!

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  2. Great post. Hope you had a wonderful mother's day!!

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  3. That's a little thing called LIFE! Everyone has one. Sometimes it just gets in the way and we need a little break from our blogs! I know I do sometimes!

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